Fear! - Take it On!

Fear! Just seeing or hearing this 4-letter word I instantly feel angst, hesitation and my body contract, throughout the years it has been my number 1 enemy! I have spent much of my life running from its dark sticky claws, it has been the cause of so many hours of grief, self-loathing and depression - so much so that I cannot believe I am actually about to write this...I see Fear as my greatest teacher! Not just mine but all of ours.

All those years I would run and hide from every situation that evoked this feeling having no idea it was there to propel me into something better, I never received the rewards that were on offer because I was too busy running for the hills trying to get back to my comfort zone.

The whole purpose of Fears existence is to teach me to wake the f up, take on the challenge and come through the other side bigger and brighter. I wish I knew this back in the day when I would have to scull 5 wines to move from the bar to the dance floor or getting ready to go on a date then literally sweating and having a panic attack, so texting can’t make it I am sick was no excuse it was the truth!

Just recently I have come to see this dark force as an emotion that wants to teach me something more about myself, an opportunity to go deeper. There is no need to run and hide but walk straight into the fear with confidence and open arms no matter how scary it feels, I am doing it right now expressing my vulnerability with this post and this business!

 What is the point of having a physical body on earth if we don’t grow and experience as much as possible, the thing we resist the most is the exact thing we need to expand. There is a story of a man who saw a caterpillar struggling to get out of a cocoon, he felt bad seeing him struggle so helped out by cutting the cocoon with a pair of scissors, the caterpillar turned into a butterfly got out and died instantly without ever flying.  The man unknowingly interfered with the process - the struggle, resistance and pressure the caterpillar had to endure was absolutely necessary for him to evolve and emerge into an amazing butterfly!

So, remember that butterfly next time you are faced with something you resist, walk straight in and take it on…feel the fear and the uneasiness and know it is part of the process, part of your transformation into something better.

AM xx

Anne-Marie HowellComment